Good Day!

I had a good day. This weekend will be organizing my blogs. I had gone out to lunch by myself and then my friend met me and we got a shake. We are doing positive affirmations which is very good to boost ones self-esteem which we both need very much.

I started to not feel well again.

Close Call

My mom and sister had a very close call today. My mom's car caught on fire due to a fuel leak. Thanks Be To God, they are both fine and neither of them were hurt. My mom was not out of the card before the car started smoking, but she was out of the car before it was on fire. My sister was shook up over it, but who wouldn't be? I know I would have freaked out too!

Thank you Lord Jesus for protecting my mom and sis!

Lunch at El Pollo Loco

Today Ritsuko and I had lunch at El Pollo Loco. It was really good. We are at the library now. I am going bowling later with AMH and I am really looking forward to it.

So very depressed

I am so depressed I could scream!! I am so fed up that I can scream again! I do not want to talk to anybody at all; I don't want to do anything at all. If it was not hot in my room and if I had a shade on my windows, I would almost stay in my room for several days and not leave. I did not want to talk to anybody at church yesterday, but I found myself talking to Pam Bell and her daughter Michele, as well as Donna. Right now though I feel that it is beyond repair and I am at the point where I could crawl into my closet and lock myself in, so I can not come out. However, I have no closet where I could do that and I guess that is a good thing because I am pretty sure that is exactly what I would do. I feel like my life is so worthless and that I am a let down to my parents; they don't need me around. When I can move out; I don't want to talk to anybody or see anybody not even my friends, at least not for a couple of months. That is not good I know, but that is certainly how I feel. I felt so depressed yesterday that I shamefully did not even go and greet Patty or really anybody yesterday! I had a headache and wished I was home in bed. If I had not gone to the playground, I would not have even talked to Donna, Pam, or Michele, though I was mostly being polite to Donna because I do not particularly like her.

I wanted so much to run and not come back. I do not even want to go to church on Sunday; maybe not for the entire summer and I also do not want to go to my group tomorrow. In fact, maybe it would be a lot better if I just kept to myself for the next 5 or 10yrs. If I move that is likely what I will do, but why would anyone care? I know they do, but why? I'm just a worthless excuse for a human being.

Library Addict

I have become an addict of the library. I go crazy when I start checking out books and I decided to stop buying books until I know none of my local libraries carry it; then I might buy the book. I also enjoy some children's books.

A little behind in posting

Hey ladies,
In case you read this, I am a little behind in my journal. I still have to post the first Saturday of this month. Just been kind of busy and got several journals going; just trying to encourage myself to write. I got one journal that I am going to use as private. I'm kind of looking at other blog sites to see what I like best, so far it's blogger.com

About my Sunday

Today I had a good day! I was tired when I woke up, but I finally got out of bed. I was on the computer for a few minutes, but not too long. I am a little tired, but I made it through church. I also went to second service, but only part of it because I had gone to first service.

After church we went to Wendy's and Walmart. I got a Jr. Bacon Cheeseburger at Wendy's for $0.99. It was good and I had a soda. I feel great.

I've been having a slight headache, but Patty prayed for me and my headache ws mostly gone. After lunch, we went to Wal-mart. I bought a present for Rachel and Tim to give to Caitie. I also two things I needed, one of them was a new watch because I have not had one. The watch is a little tight, but it doesn't bother me that much. i just like having a watch. I hope it doesn't give me a rash; not that I am allergic, I just never really wore this kind of a watch before; never was much for watches for some reason. Now I am though. I love it.

Well, it's 5:45pm and I am gonna read now. Now Mom and I are at McDonalds for a little bit. Iread a chapter and now I am take a little break to write some more thoughts down. I haven't been journaling as much. I regret that.

Lunch with Ritsuko

Ritsuko and I went to Carl's Jr. for lunch. I love their Bacon Western Cheeseburger, it is my absolute favorite. We had a great time chatting and stuff and then we prayed together. I always enjoy ending my time with my mentors praying for each other and with each other. I prayed for Patty's brother and sister. We had a great time.

Feeling a little better

I am feeling somewhat better today. My stomach still hurts, but not as much. I'm going to try and get some reading done and do some journalling in my offline journal.

Bad night

I woke up yesterday not feeling well, but it didn't seem to be so bad, so I went to the library to check out a book and then I went to McDonalds. Later when my mom took me to my grandpas to pick up the rest of my laundry which I had left behind, I had another case of a stomach ache I had one the rest of the day but seemed to get better. Then I got sick again after I got back to grandpas after 10pm. I don't know why my stomach has to act this way. I wish my stomach would stop hurting though. I can not even sleep and I don't want to wake grandpa up.

I will not be going to my group tomorrow feeling this way even if I feel better because I don't want to have a problem on the way there or on the way back while taking the bus, so I am going to hang out here and sleep on and off during the day since it's 1:16am and it doesn't look like I will get much sleep.

Jewelry Club

Today I am going to go to a Jewelry club. It sounds like fun and I hope I can make some fun jewelry. It's going to be something new for me to do each week.

I started a new book last night but haven't finished my other ones yet.

Good Day but tired.

I had a pretty good day though when I got home this afternoon after church and getting a bite to eat, I was not feeling well. I slept a lot. I am tired and haven't been feeling well. Church was good and so was Sunday School. So I had an overall good day but feel bad because I didn't do much work and my parents did most of it. I just haven't been feeling well at all for the passed week and a half. Tomorrow I am going to a jewelry group, so that should be fun.

Not feeling well

Today I am not feeling well at all. It's 8:20 and I am thinking I will go back to bed for a while, since I'm not getting picked up until 12:30, but I sure hope I feel better by then. I also hope I haven't come down with anything. I wish I was feeling better.

Not feeling all that great today

I haven't felt all that great today. My stomach is bothering me and I felt sick all day. I had a slight headache and strong nauseous. I did not throw up though, but felt like I might. I have been feeling nauseous since I hit my head Thursday night. Or I should say Whacked it! I felt like I was whacked over the head with something.

Good Day!

Today I went to church. I had a headache during church, but it got better after I ate something. I went to Sunday School and we read Judges 3. Our class was also in charge of the fellowship cafe, so we had a short class. I helped a little bit just putting stuff out. I saw my friend Libby and she gave me my b-day gifts. She really put some thought into it and I loved everything she gave me.
My parents and I went to Wendy's for lunch and I got a kids meal, so that I could get a game I wanted, but found out it might not work on my laptop. Shucks. Dad won't let me have it on his computer and he has never fixed mine, so that is just too bad because his desktop is the only computer we have.
So after Wendy's we went to Wal-mart and I got all this cool stuff. Coloring books and a package of posters - velvet posters. I actually gave my mom my Target gift card in exchange for all the stuff she got me because Target doesn't have that kind of stuff - the velvet posters and I love those posters. I love to color. Coloring is good therepy as writing is. That is why I am keeping this journal.
I had a headache today and it only went a way for a little bit.

My party

My friend Libby was sick, so she couldn't make it to my b-day party today. I had fun at my party, even though we did not do much of anything. We had dinner and talked at the table. Then we had cake and ice cream. Caitie had bought KFC for dinner and I had given her a coupon and it came with a lemon or chocolate cake. She got the lemon because that is what she wanted. It was so good. We had enough chicken for everyone and there was chicken left over. It was so good. Jenny had to leave early, so we didn't get any pictures with her. I wish I had thought to ask her for 1 or 2 quick pictures. She gave me a $15 gift card for Bean Town which will come in handy when I am taking the bus home in Sierra Madre and want to get something. Debbi and Brain got me a gift card for target worth $20 and instead of using that at Target, I gave it to my mom so I could get stuff at Wal-mart that they would not have at Target. I also got a $10 gift card for In-and-Out from Sheila and Sean, but since I can't eat there because it makes me sick, I had to give that to my dad in exchange for $10. He will give me $10 when I am ready for it though.

Without a Trace Series LIS

I finished another book today ahead of schedule. Now I have to find another book to read. Tomorrow is my party; I have no idea what we are doing. But I am sure that I will have fun with my friends there. I hope Caitie has something planned and I hope I get cash for my b-day because I need cash more than anything. I can't wait until tomorrow.

Migraine today!

Last night before I went to sleep, I was talking on the phone with my friend Caitie. I was climbing into bed and scooting down, so I be lying down while I was on the phone, but I didn't scoot down far enough and ended up whacking my head on the wall. Boy did it hurt!!!! I wanted to scream it hurt so much, but I didn't want to wake everyone up. I got some ice for it for a little bit and then I took two IB profen because it just hurt so much. It should have helped, but I woke up with a migraine and do not feel well at all. I want to go back to sleep now.

Pretty good Day

Well today I got picked up to go to my appointments that I have. I had a pretty good day. I took the bus back and stopped at McDonald's for lunch. My mom and I went to Target and I got another Daily Planner, but this time it is easier to carry around plus I have to keep a to do list. However, I have decided to start the "To do" list on Monday June 1st because that is the day that it starts with (Monday), and then next year in January I will go to the front and use it for 2010 because it's undated.
But I had a great day and everything went well. My mom and I also went to McDonalds again for dinner, only this time, we had a Cheese Burger. I didn't have too much of a headache until I hit my head which you can read in the next post.

Knotts Berry Farm #1

Going to Knotts Berry Farm today and am going to have a great time. I feel good today. I had a slight headache, but not too bad.

Nice Day

I had a very good day today. I am going to start emailing my blogs and then updating it when I have time to show the time and date I want it to. I went to Uniion station to get the extension on my bus pass for my old disability pass. I only have through June and will have to come back next month to get July's. I only had to pay $10.50 to get my bus sticker, so I was happy about that. I also found out that I can continue getting my bus fare at City Hall, so that made me even more happy. All is well.

I went to Del Taco for lunch, but I did not stay too long. I went to the post office to check my mail and also mail something for my mom and left my water bottle there. Thankfully, my mom found it and I got it back.

Reading

I am currently reading a series by multiple authors. It's the Without a Trace series Love Inspired Suspense and I am on book #5 "Deadly Competition" by Roxanne Rustand. It's a good book and I enjoy it. I mostly enjoy the Love Inspired Suspense because they are christian books and they always have something that witnesses to other characters and I think that is cool. Sometimes it could be that a character was a christian, but he/she has turned their back on the Lord; something we all have done, I am sure. And the character that turns their back on God comes back to God and realizes that God didn't forsake him/her, but he/she forsake God. Other times it's someone who was not a Christian and they give their life to God. These books are so good.
My favorite book I have ever read though is a heartsong present book "Down from the Cross" by Joyce Livingston. It is absolutely the best book I have ever read in my entire life!

Feeling better!

I am feeling better. My headache is pretty much gone. I've just tried on a pair of pants that didn't fit quite right before today and I discovered they fit and are comfortable. I have to wear a belt because they are a little too big. I'm losing weight and I am pleased with myself. But if I lose too much weight then my pants won't fit and I have to buy new pants and I have no funds to do that. So I am not sure how good of a thing this is. But it is still nice to see that I have lost weight.

Tired

I got a headache this morning, but at least it's not a migraine. I hope I don't have one on Wednesday because I am going to Knott's Berry Farm no matter how I feel.

Headache all day long

I had headaches all day long and I slept from 12:48pm to 4pm or a little later. I went to McDonalds for a Cherry Pie and it helped a little bit. I should have taken some more ib profen. I finished a book I was reading which I am really pleased about. I also started another book which I am really enjoying. I got a new keyboard but I keep forgetting that I have it, so I keep using my keyboard on my laptop. lol. Well, at least I don't have a problem with the mouse pad anymore.

Headache

I have a really bad headache right now. I am up and ready to attend church. I just wanted to write in my journal before I get picked up. I wish my head would not hurt. That dang parrot is driving me insane!!!

Had a good day

I had a very good day today and I feel great, but I need to get to bed as it is really after midnight. I read about two chapters in my Bible today and I am almost finished with Judges. I went to Taco Bell and read a lot in my book today. I came home and watch some tv. My mom and I watched "Without a Trace," "Medium," and another program that I am drawing a blank on.

Good Day

Caitie came over today. I went with my dad to see about the discounts for Knotts Berry Farm. They do not have any company discounts, so we will be going on Wenesday and getting the Burger King discount. We picked Caitie and my mom up at home and went to Taco Bell for lunch. Caitie watched 2 episodes of Biggest Loser.

Caitie and I went to Jack in the Box and she got me a sprite and bought herself a smoothie, but she shared it with me. This guy talked to us and he liked Caitie and said she was pretty. Caitie's face was shining because someone paid a compliment to her. I am happy that happened. He asked her to sit at another table for a short time, so they can chat. I was happy for her but at the same time, I felt lonely. I also was not feeling really good.

I got kind of sick when I got home.

feeling somewhat better

I am feeling somewhat better but not much. I'd like to get my Bible study done or at least a few questions done. I'd like to also read a couple chapters in a book.

Not feeling good at all!

I am not feeling well. I woke up with a really bad stomach and I got sick and threw up. My stomach still hurts a lot!

Jenny

I haven't been able to get together with my friend Jenny yet because she's been sick. This week I am scheduled to meet with Anita Lewis and I need to call her and find out what day is good for her to get together with me. Probably Friday is good, but Caitie is suppose to come over, so I don't know when she wants to come over. Maybe she can hang out here when I go to Anita's and be here when I get back. I'll have to see or Caitie can come over Thursday morning and then I can get together with Anita on Friday. I can't do it Saturday though in case I go to Santa Monica Pier with my friend Libby. That would be fun if Libby and I got to do that.

Facebook Chat

Well, I am off to bed now. I chatted with my friend Catherine (Caitie) and my friend Jenny V. and Caitie and Jenny chatted too. Now I'm going to go to bed and I will either read in bed or fall asleep. I will try and read at least one chapter if I can.

Tired

Well, I was tired today! I am feeling all right and didn't have a headache for most of the day, but then this afternoon I was feeling so tired and started getting a headache that I had to take a nap. I don't know how long I slept for; probably a few hrs. I was just so exhausted. I wonder now if I can actually go to sleep like I should?

Zoo Trip

We had a great time at the zoo! My parents, my friend Libby, and I spent the entire day at the zoo! It was nice whether and we bought hats because it was hot. My dad didn't have one, but my friend bought herself and my mom one, and I bought myself a hat. In fact, the hat is so comfortable that I took it with me to church and wore it home. I didn't have a headache for most of the day which is good because I got to enjoy the zoo headache free. We saw a turtle that had flipped upside down and couldn't get turned back over. We had to find someone to contact the zoo keeper to turn the turtle back over. The turtle was in the sun and turning itself in circles. Poor thing! Pictures will come later.

Finally got some sleep

I finally got some sleep after 3am in the morning. I was not feeling well and feeling really anxious. I am doing better tonight.

Can't Sleep

I am having trouble sleeping and I do not know what to do about it. My stomach is hurting a little bit. I know why I can't sleep; it is because I am nervous about the med-ical application. I also am not feeling good. I am afraid of not doing something right. Lord, help me sleep and help me to trust you completely!

My Birthday

Today was good, even though I woke up with a headache and was not feeling too well. I spent the day with Libby, but most of the day we didn't do anything. Late in the afternoon we went to the mall and hung out for an hr. We had a really late lunch because we had a late breakfast (brunch). I was not feeling very well afterward, so when we got back to Libby's friend's house, I rested. I slept longer than I should have and was late to Bible study, but I was not feeling well and at least I made it there. I had difficulty sleeping.

Long Day

I had a very long day.

Headache

I have a really bad headache this morning and did not feel like getting up. I hit my head one the wall when I was asleep. I didn't hit it too hard though; like just barely bumped it, but it still hurts like I hit it hard.

Good Day

So far today I am doing pretty good. I don't have a headache, however, I am tired. I slept so so. I haven't missed any of my medicine and I feel good.

Good Afternoon

I woke up with a headache this morning and I really did not want to get out of bed at all. The parrots wake me up every single morning and it's so frustrating because I can not sleep as long as I feel I need to. I toss and turn from 5am to the time I finally drag myself out of bed. Today I had applesauce for breakfast, but I still had a headache. I ended up taking two ibprofens when I was at church and ate a huge breakfast which seemed to help.
After Sunday School I met with my friend for lunch and we had a short visit. I am feeling so tired but needed to come to the library and check my email. I am about done now and going to go home and rest. Hopefully I will feel like doing some reading, but I do not know yet. So far the day has not been too bad.

Good Morning

When I first woke up this morning I was still tired. I felt good though. I went back to sleep until about 9am and then I woke up and read Psalms 23, Proverbs 9, and Judges 9. I didn't read Psalms 23 last night, but I started to quote it when I went to bed. I don't think I got through all the verses because I think I fell asleep, but I don't remember. Last night was the first night that I did not read Psalms 23, unless I had read it in the morning. I do not remember doing that though. I did read Proverbs 8, so from April 1 through today, I have been doing awesome reading my Bible. I try not to worry about how much I read, just the fact that I am reading and thinking about the Lord.
I also prayed for Patty's brother Steve. He was on my mind when I woke up around 9am and I immediately prayed for him. I hope that he feels better and that his blood sugar is normal. I don't think I had to worry about that when I was going through the cancer treatments, but I did have a scare with the blood clot in my leg and had to be given shots - that was no fun because I hate shots, but now I have learned to accept them because I have had so many shots in a short amount of time that the last shot I had did not even hurt. In fact, I had shots to stop my period and those were kind of painful, but the one I had in the hospital did not even hurt at all.
I felt fine when I woke up this morning, but now I am feeling nauseous, so I think it is a sign that I am hungry and need to eat something. I don't have a headache at all though.

Lunch with Ritsuko

Today Ritsuko called me and we decided to meet this week instead of next week. I think this worked out great because it gives me time to get together with Jenny Visick. So Ritsuko and I went to "Marie Calendars" and we had a great time. We shared a sandwich and she let me have the fries, but I couldn't finish them because we had both gotten the salad bar and soup. I didn't go back for seconds because I realize a salad probably would have been plenty for me. It was really good and I love garlic bread!
Then Ritsuko surprises me by buying me a whole cherry pie; so my parents and I will enjoy it very much and I hope my sister and Justin will enjoy a slice also. I plan to take the biggest piece though. lol. Probably won't really do that.
Now I am at the library writing this blog because my computer has a virus. Instead of getting upset, I figure maybe this is God's way of saying that I spend too much time on the computer. So I will take the bus to the library daily and spend about an hour on the comptuer. I will check email, post to my blog, and update my goodreads.

Lunch with Ritsuko

Today Ritsuko called me and we decided to meet this week instead of next week. I think this worked out great because it gives me time to get together with Jenny Visick. So Ritsuko and I went to "Marie Calendars" and we had a great time. We shared a sandwich and she let me have the fries, but I couldn't finish them because we had both gotten the salad bar and soup. I didn't go back for seconds because I realize a salad probably would have been plenty for me. It was really good and I love garlic bread!
Then Ritsuko surprises me by buying me a whole cherry pie; so my parents and I will enjoy it very much and I hope my sister and Justin will enjoy a slice also. I plan to take the biggest piece though. lol. Probably won't really do that.
Now I am at the library writing this blog because my computer has a virus. Instead of getting upset, I figure maybe this is God's way of saying that I spend too much time on the computer. So I will take the bus to the library daily and spend about an hour on the comptuer. I will check email, post to my blog, and update my goodreads.

Lunch

Today I had lunch with Ritsuko. We had a nice time and I quoted Proverbs 3 1-16, but caught myself when I skipped verses 9-10.

Book Blog

This is my book blog only site.

Not feeling well today

I woke up not feeling too well this morning. My stomach is bothering me right now. I feel a little sick and kind of have a headache. I have some errands to do, but if I don't feel better after a shower, then I am going to skip the errands and do them tomorrow. I wish I was feeling better because too often I am not feeling well.
I am going to try and get some reading done today too. I read Psalms 23, Proverbs 7 (because today is May 7 and tomorrow I read Proverbs 8), and I also ready Judges 7-8 today.

I will also spend time coloring because I usually feel better after I color. I may color in my coloring book today.

Not feeling well today

I woke up not feeling too well this morning. My stomach is bothering me right now. I feel a little sick and kind of have a headache. I have some errands to do, but if I don't feel better after a shower, then I am going to skip the errands and do them tomorrow. I wish I was feeling better because too often I am not feeling well.
I am going to try and get some reading done today too. I read Psalms 23, Proverbs 7 (because today is May 7 and tomorrow I read Proverbs 8), and I also ready Judges 7-8 today.

I will also spend time coloring because I usually feel better after I color. I may color in my coloring book today.

Lunch with Caitie

I met my friend Caitie for lunch and paid for it like I promised. I told her it was my treat and that is only because I got some extra birthday money for my birthday and also because I have a bus pass. It feels so good to have a bus pass and it feels so good to go wherever I want and whenever I want. Tomorrow I should go to the library and use their computer and get through some email. Caitie and I had a nice time together and we had fun coloring together also. I gave my new markers to Caitie because I had bought a pack of 100 markers, so now she has some new or somewhat new markers.

I am going to bed now, but going to read Psalms 23 and Proverbs 6.

Lunch with Caitie

I met my friend Caitie for lunch and paid for it like I promised. I told her it was my treat and that is only because I got some extra birthday money for my birthday and also because I have a bus pass. It feels so good to have a bus pass and it feels so good to go wherever I want and whenever I want. Tomorrow I should go to the library and use their computer and get through some email. Caitie and I had a nice time together and we had fun coloring together also. I gave my new markers to Caitie because I had bought a pack of 100 markers, so now she has some new or somewhat new markers.

I am going to bed now, but going to read Psalms 23 and Proverbs 6.

Good Day so far

I've been feeling good so far! I didn't wake up with a headache and I think I slept all right too. I'm meeting Caitie for lunch today, and we are going to color together. I am glad that we both like to color.

Good Day so far

I've been feeling good so far! I didn't wake up with a headache and I think I slept all right too. I'm meeting Caitie for lunch today, and we are going to color together. I am glad that we both like to color.

Doing OK

Today I woke up feeling okay. I got ready, so that I could meet my friend and hang out with her. I had a pretty good day overall, but I got sick and threw up my lunch. So I am going to bed now and it's only 10:46pm. I took my medicine. This morning I read Proverbs 5 (May 5), and tomorrow I will read Proverbs 6 (May 6). I also read Psalms 23 like I have been doing every day.

Also my friend is home from the hospital.

I went out to lunch with my friend today and also two other friends.

Doing OK

Today I woke up feeling okay. I got ready, so that I could meet my friend and hang out with her. I had a pretty good day overall, but I got sick and threw up my lunch. So I am going to bed now and it's only 10:46pm. I took my medicine. This morning I read Proverbs 5 (May 5), and tomorrow I will read Proverbs 6 (May 6). I also read Psalms 23 like I have been doing every day.

Also my friend is home from the hospital.

I went out to lunch with my friend today and also two other friends.

Rough evening turned out great

I had kind of a rough evening and things got really frustrating for me and things were not going well. I dropped my hotdog on the floor and had to throw it away and cook me another which got me upset because I was already upset. Everything kind of got worse, but then my dad felt bad for yelling at me and took me out so we could talk in private and everything ended better than I expected so I am going to bed now.

Drank a small glass of Dr. Pepper (so much for getting off the caffeine), but that's all I had. I was not going to go back to drinking a lot of caffeine. Now if I drink a little caffeine, it actually has been helping more with my headaches an it kind of kept it away.

Lunch with my mom

My mom took me to Arcadia Mental Health to give my letter for financial part of AMH and also to give my case worker my bus application. I was going to take the bus out there, but I have to take 2 or 3 buses and was not feeling up to doing that plus I was feeling a little uneasy about taking the bus out there by myself. So I told my mom I would buy her a soda, if she took me out there, but I decided that she deserved much more and bought her lunch instead. We shared a sub and she paid for the drinks, $0.49 of the sub because it was no longer $5 and the tax. We had a good time today and so far my day has been pretty good.
But now I have to go pick up mail and go to Target, so I will be taking the bus to Target and that way I get to use my bus pass again today plus I plan to go to the library as well.

Doing OK today at the moment

I keep waking up earlier than I want to and then I have to go back to sleep. This morning I laid in bed for a little bit, but I decided to get up because I couldn't sleep anyway! As usual I heard the annoying parrot, but I don't think I really got a headache this morning. I am doing OK right now.

I am feeling better!

Well, my migraine has finally gone away and I am feeling so much better now! I've taken the bus 8 times so far. :) Tomorrow I will be taking it quite a few times too, unless I change my plans.

I am feeling better!

Well, my migraine has finally gone away and I am feeling so much better now! I've taken the bus 8 times so far. :) Tomorrow I will be taking it quite a few times too, unless I change my plans.

Migraines

I had a horrible migraine today! I tried rubbing my head to see if it would relieve the pain, but it didn't. I visited Caitie for as long as I could and then I had to leave. I had a really long day this weekend. Today I had church, a baby shower, and then went to visit Caitie. Thank goodness my friend Jenny took me to the hospital, so I didn't have to miss seeing Caitie. She even came in with me and all three of us got to visit. Then I took the bus home and I didn't have to wait to long, but I was feeling naseous, so I went to McDonalds to get something to eat.

I got a Chicken Sandwich, small fries with no salt, and a sprite. I drank one sip of caffeine soda because I wanted to see if it would relieve my migraine and it did, but I don't like Dr. Pepper anymore. It's nasty. It's good that I don't like it because I allowed myself to be tempted and only had one sip.

Headache

I woke up with a headache this morning. My stomach hurts a little bit. I'm not feeling so great and I would love so much to go back to sleep for the rest of the day and just stay in bed all day except to wake up for Lunch and dinner. But I don't want to miss church, so I can't do that. Hopefully, I feel better soon and will just have to pray that I will.

Breakfast at Starbucks

Today Karyn and I went to Starbucks for breakfast. We had a great time. I started out having kind of a bad day and I was not feeling too well, however, I always feel a lot better whenever I meet with my mentors. Karyn took me to get my bus pass and I am just so excited that I can finally take the bus places and have a little freedom.

Breakfast at Starbucks

Today Karyn and I went to Starbucks for breakfast. We had a great time. I started out having kind of a bad day and I was not feeling too well, however, I always feel a lot better whenever I meet with my mentors. Karyn took me to get my bus pass and I am just so excited that I can finally take the bus places and have a little freedom.

Free Printable Coloring Pages

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More coloring fun

Coloring castle

My favorite pictures
Rose

Butterflies

Time for some sleep!

Well, it's about that time again; to go to bed. Last night I got to bed a little after midnight, but tonight I took my medicine earlier and will be going to bed in just a few minutes. Hopefully, I can sleep tonight. I talk to my friend Caitie and prayed for her tonight that she would sleep well and feel real good in the morning and prayed the same for me. So now it's time to go to bed and get some sleep.

I took my medicine and am not quite sure if I am actually tired. I really wish that I didn't have to take anti-depressant medicine because I really don't like taking medicine. However, I know that I must take it and won't stop taking my medicine because I'd be a fool if I did. It's a good thing I have friends who would get upset with me if I ever quit taken them because that will make me continue taking them. I don't like it when someone gets upset with me. I want to get better and I don't ever want to repeat what happen to me recently because it really scared me and I know it scared and worried other too!

I hope my friend Caitie will get as much good out of being in the hospital that I got, if not more.

Breakfast at Starbucks

Today I met with Karyn and we went to Starbucks. We had a great time. We always have a great time. I always have a great time!!

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Email blogging

One of the pretty neat things is that I can email the blog, so that I don't have to log into my blog plus I can edit it too. I can also write blogs and date that back to whatever day and time that I choose. That's why I like blogger.com better than yahoo blogs or hotmail blogs. :)

Thank You

Today Karyn took me to pay for my bus pass for the month of May, so I just wanted to say thanks to all four of my mentors for helping me out and giving me this month to be independent. I really appreciate it a lot and I am so blessed. I plan to take the bus every day because my computer is giving me problems with connection and I want to go to the library, so I can check email and update my blog without a slow poke computer.

Thank you and big hugs to all four of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bible Reading

I'm still not feeling well! I read my Bible this morning though, but only Psalms 23 and Proverbs 2. I am going to try reading a Proverbs a day. There are 31 chapters in Proverbs and 31 days this month.

Waking up with a really bad Headache

Woke up several times this morning starting at 3am and I had difficulty sleeping. I kept tossing and turning and then around 6:30am I gave up. I feel like there was no point in even trying to sleep because the birds were making a lot of racket, specifically someone's pet Parrot they must have tamed and let out daily. It drives me crazy! I need to eat something to hold me until breakfast at 9:30am so that I don't end up with a horrific migraine.
Hopefully, I feel better after eating some applesauce. Yesterday was perfect, absolutely perfect, but this morning I am not good at least not now. I almost forgot to eat dinner last night.

Perfect Day

Today was a perfect Day! Absolutely perfect!

Mentoring!

Today I had lunch with one of my four mentors. We went to Conrads for lunch and we had a really nice visit. She prayed for our food before it came and prayed for my friend Caitie. Then I added a prayer for her brother too. We had a nice visit and Caitie called me, so I talked to her for a few minutes and then passed the phone so Caitie can talk to her too. I will be seeing Caitie tonight and probably tomorrow and I can't wait. I have busy, busy weekend this weekend. Then my friend is arriving on Monday, so I will be seeing her either Tuesday or Wednesday. Tomorrow I meet with another one of my mentors :) and I can't wait and then will visit Caitie and on Sunay I may not even get to visit Caitie because I have church and a baby shower and I don't want to miss the baby shower. Hopefully Caitie will have lots of visitors and she will feel better soon.
I decided to do some coloring today, so I found the rose that I printed out and colored it and gave it to Patty and wrote on it "A Beautiful Rose for a very special person!" And she loved it!! I feel like a little kid coloring and then giving them away though, but that's okay! Nothing wrong with that! It lets my friends know that I think they are special!!

So will probably write more on my blog later. Pray for Patty's brother!

Lunch at Conrads

Today I had lunch at Conrads with my friend Patty. We had a great time and I loved the salad. I think Conrads is my favorite place to go for salads. I ate what I could for lunch and shared some later with my mom and then I had the rest of it for dinner. It was delicious!

Today was an absolutely perfect day. I feel great! It's not saving the date I changed it to.

Lunch at Conrads

Today I had lunch at Conrads with my friend Patty. We had a great time and I loved the salad. I think Conrads is my favorite place to go for salads. I ate what I could for lunch and shared some later with my mom and then I had the rest of it for dinner. It was delicious!

Today was an absolutely perfect day. I feel great! It's not saving the date I changed it to.

My Best Friend

While I was in the middle of writing my last blog, my friend calls me from the hospital. She is doing better little bit at a time. She told me she had been feeling anxious and decided to read her Bible. While she was reading her Bible she was surprised with a special visitor who had brought a dog. The visitor does volunteer work at the hospital, so she was allowed to see my friend even though it was not during visiting hrs and I do believe that it was God's doing because He knew what my friend needed in order not to feel anxious anymore! So I was really happy to hear from her and that she called to tell me that.

Tired

I am tired right now, but I am feeling good. I don't know why I am tired all the time. I go to bed before midnight most of the time, but I always wake and feel tired. I would love to lie down and take a nap, but I know if I fall asleep I will end up being asleep when my friend comes to pick me up. That would not be a good idea. lol. I could take a nap when I get home, but then I may have trouble sleeping tonight. I don't really have a headache right now. I ate a little apple sauce earlier this morning and I just finished having a glass of milk. I am probably just hungry and maybe bored. I think I might try coloring for a while so as to get my mind off of stuff. Maybe I will color two coloring pages that I printed out and give one to m friend today and one to my other friend tomorrow. It sounds kind of silly to do that, but when I was in the hospital; one of the occupational therapists kept asking me who I was going to give each coloring to. So I started coloring pictures and giving them away.

TV shows that might be canceled

I just found out that some of my favorite shows might be canceled. Some of my favorite shows that might be canceled are WITHOUT A TRACE, COLD CASE, and NCIS.

I love NCIS and it's my top favorite show, so I hope that one doesn't get canceled. I think the characters on this show are funny.

Great Morning!

My friend called from the hospital at around 7am in the morning. I was somewhat asleep and somewhat awake, but I am glad she called. She is getting better, but I don't think she is ready to come home. I really miss her a lot and I will be going to visit her tomorrow.
Today I get together with one of my mentors and I am really looking forward to it! It feels like forever, since we got together. :) It's only been a month though except when she came to visit me when I was in the hospital.
The night she came to visit me in the hospital she prayed for me and my roommate! That evening my roommate and I began reading Psalms 23 together every night! It was awesome! I hope that my roommate is reading Psalms 23 every morning and every night like I've been doing.

Just a note

You may see previous days as earlier as April 1st, 2009 show up in the near future. I've kept a daily journal since then. You also will see blogs about books and other stuff that I exported and imported, so that I had one blog instead of four. They are all now combined as one. Later I will add my yahoo groups on here too.

Also, I've kept a journal of the stuff I have done with my mentors and if I can find the pages, I'll be adding those as well and I might do that as a totally different blog altogether; but am not sure yet.

Slow Computer and stuff

My computer is really really slow. The connection is horrible and it's bugging me right now. Everything seems to load up slowly! It says I have a strong connection, but 24 is not strong. It was even at a 1.0 and never seen that before and it was also at a 5.0 which are horrible speed connections. With my other computer, I had other problems. I guess it's our connection and not the computer itself, though I do not really know.

I had a pretty good day, but I am looking forward to getting my bus pass this weekend! Then I can go to the library and work on catching up with email and working on my blog site. I really want to try and write on my blog daily, but usually I am not very good at that. I'll just do what I can and when I can do it.

Well, I best be going to bed now because I think my best friend is going to call me at 7am in the morning; at least, that is what it sounded like she wanted to do. I told her she can call me whenever she wants because I know she is going through a hard time. We both are and I want to be there for her like she has been there for me. She encouraged me to talk to people about things that are very hard to talk about and also scary to talk about. But I am learning that God puts people in your life, so that you can share things with each other. Not just the good times either, but also the bad times. How else are we suppose to pray for our brothers and sisters in Christ? So I have to be brave and share what's on my mind and not be afraid of how someone will react and treat me.

If I open up and I am honest, I won't miss so many of the blessings that God is gracious to give me. When I joined the mentoring program, I never imagined that I would have a awesome relationship with four ladies at church. Lots of things that I did not want to share with them, but I found myself sharing things I never thought I could share.

Two of my mentors I only met last year and the other two I have known for a while, however, I have not really truly known them. Why? Because there is knowing someone by name and then there is knowing someone by spending time with them and getting to know what they are like, how they think, how they pray, and how they encourage you. So in a way, it's like having four brand new friends.

I worked VBS with one of my mentors several years ago, but I forgot what grade it was. I enjoyed it a lot and would love to work VBS with her again. The other mentor that I know; I met when I was babysitting for the choir and I got to know her a little better through Cornerstone Sunday School class and now I've gotten to know her even more. Now we are in another Sunday School class together.

If I had to choose to get together with one of these ladies once a week and not all four of them each month; I'd have a really tough decision to make because they are all absolutely delightful ladies to spend time with and wonderful Sisters in Christ! I don't think that I could ever just choose one of them to spend time with regularly!

Well, like I said earlier, I better get to bed. I still need to read Psalms 23. I have been reading Psalms 23 every single day for 3 weeks now! This is something new I began doing the night I decided to admit myself into the hospital. I have never really meditated on a chapter like this, but it's really quite awesome and in the process of meditating on it, I have pretty much memorized it also.

Kardia

Well, I miss Caitie, but I decided to wait until tomorrow to visit her. I'll be going to Kardia tonight because I really don't want to miss it! I love all the Kardia ladies and I would just be missing out on so much if I missed Kardia. I can't wait until I get together with Patty tomorrow; I love getting together with her and also all my mentors. They are so special to me and make me feel so special!

Good Morning

Caitie called me this morning, but I had missed her call. I called her right back though and she answered the phone. Caitie is spending time in the hospital getting better and hopefully the new medicine they give her will work to relieve her of her depression. She went into the hospital for similar reasons that I went in. We are both dealing with depression.

Today is a good day for me though. I did kind of wake up with a headache/migraine, but lately they have not been so bad. I think that going off the caffeine was a wise decision and I don't care to go back on it. I also think that drinking as much caffieine as I was doing was also causing me to be depressed more and I definately do not want to go there either.

Tonight I'll go to Kardia, so I won't be able to see Caitie, but I've thought about missing Kardia and going to visit Caitie instead. Go to Kardia or visit Caitie?? I don't want her to have no visitors, but I don't want to miss Kardia. I could always call Patty and ask her what time she wants to get together tomorrow and go ahead and miss Kardia, but I really do not want to miss Kardia and I know Caitie will certainly understand. I need to go to kardia because it's important for me to be there.

My Name is Mike by Gail Sattler

I am reading a Heartsong Present book called "My Name is Mike" by Gail Sattler. It's about a young man struggling to admit he is an alcoholic and coming to grips with it. He also struggles to believe that God Loves Him. This is a really good book.

Feeling a little better

I had a great day so far today, even though I woke up not feeling well! I am feeling a little better though. I met with Rachel and Tim at Carl's Jr./Green Burrito and their neice was their. She was not eating and ended up getting sick. Poor kid! I am feeling a little better right now. I finished my book that I was reading plus my mom and I went to the post office to check our mail; we did not have any packages though.

Can't Sleep

Today I woke up at 5:30am and could not sleep. I tossed and turned until I gave up trying to sleep at around 7am or so. I woke up with a bit of a headache. I read Psalms 23 this morning and Judges 2. Right now I still have a bit of a headache.

I took a short break from the computer to color a picture in my princess coloring books. That's one of the things I was taught to do for therapy when I was in the hospital. I think I like using markers better than crayons for some reason.

Later I am going to do some reading for pleasure and also take a nap because I am still very tired. Tonight I have Kardia and I am looking forward to going tonight, but I haven't done the lesson and I find it to be extremely hard to do and answer questions. I'm not very bright when I do Bible studies.

I skipped breakfast because I was not hungry, so I had kind of an early lunch. I fixed a roast beef sandwich with mustard and pickles.

New Hobbies

Today I had a really good day! My mom took me to my friend's house to give her the page I colored for her and I also showed her some coloring pages I printed out from the internet. Coloring is now one of my new hobbies. After my mom and I went to my friend's house, we went to pick up mail and we didn't have much, but we did have something important for my mom. Then we went thru the drive thru at McDonalds and ordered two cherry pies plus got a cup of cold ice water because it was so hot. We then went to Taco Bell for Root Beer! We had made sandwiches before leaving our house, so we didn't eat out except for the cherry pies.