Finished reading

I finished reading "Always a Bridesmaid," by Andrea Boeshaar. Next I am going to start reading "Spining Out of Control."

Reading

I am reading a book called "Always a bridesmaid," by Andrea Boeshaar. This book is very good. I hope I can finish it tonight.

Dealing with Loss

I've been struggling these passed several days. A friend of mine passed away the day before Easter and then my best friend's friend passed away about 2 weeks later. She's been struggling terribly, and I've been trying to stay strong and be there for her. The only problem is that I can not do it anymore. I finally broke down and cried. I felt that my friend needed me more, and I had had two weeks to mourn, so I had to be there for my friend. I know it takes longer than 2 weeks to get through the loss of a loved one though. I just hope it won't take me as long as it did for my grandfather. I'll always and forever miss her, but I want it to get easier and not take so long for it to get easier. Everytime I see something in my room that my friend Nancy gave me; I want to break down and cry. For a while, I couldn't do it, but now I can.

Thanksgiving!

Thanksgiving is usually one of my favorite times because it means spending time with lots of family and friends. This year however, I didn't do that much for Thanksgiving. My parents, my friend Caitie, and I went to Jack in the Box for lunch. Although it was not much that we did; it was still nice and then our new neighbor brought over a pie for us. The pie was the most delicious pie I have ever tasted!

School

I spent 3hrs today at school in the computer lab working on my assignments, and I got 4 assignments completed. I'm learning new stuff in both my Microsoft Word class, as well as, my Microsoft Access class. It is so exciting to already know a program so well, but then find that there are so many things you can do with the software that you did not know before. It's so exciting and I just love it. I can hardly wait until February 20, 2007 when the Spring semester starts and I can start to learn even more stuff. Ohhhhhhhh, it is soooooooooooo exciting!!!! I'm having a blast!

Feeling so helpless!

Have you ever felt as though you were helpless when it has come to a friend who really needs you? Ever felt as though no matter what you did; it was not enough? That is how I feel right now. My friend is going through a really tough time, and I don't know how to help her, and I feel so helpless. I try to be there for her, but she won't talk to me, and I just feel like everything I do to help her makes her feel worse. I just feel so helpless and I feel like I am not a very good friend.