You may see previous days as earlier as April 1st, 2009 show up in the near future. I've kept a daily journal since then. You also will see blogs about books and other stuff that I exported and imported, so that I had one blog instead of four. They are all now combined as one. Later I will add my yahoo groups on here too.
Also, I've kept a journal of the stuff I have done with my mentors and if I can find the pages, I'll be adding those as well and I might do that as a totally different blog altogether; but am not sure yet.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Slow Computer and stuff
My computer is really really slow. The connection is horrible and it's bugging me right now. Everything seems to load up slowly! It says I have a strong connection, but 24 is not strong. It was even at a 1.0 and never seen that before and it was also at a 5.0 which are horrible speed connections. With my other computer, I had other problems. I guess it's our connection and not the computer itself, though I do not really know.
I had a pretty good day, but I am looking forward to getting my bus pass this weekend! Then I can go to the library and work on catching up with email and working on my blog site. I really want to try and write on my blog daily, but usually I am not very good at that. I'll just do what I can and when I can do it.
Well, I best be going to bed now because I think my best friend is going to call me at 7am in the morning; at least, that is what it sounded like she wanted to do. I told her she can call me whenever she wants because I know she is going through a hard time. We both are and I want to be there for her like she has been there for me. She encouraged me to talk to people about things that are very hard to talk about and also scary to talk about. But I am learning that God puts people in your life, so that you can share things with each other. Not just the good times either, but also the bad times. How else are we suppose to pray for our brothers and sisters in Christ? So I have to be brave and share what's on my mind and not be afraid of how someone will react and treat me.
If I open up and I am honest, I won't miss so many of the blessings that God is gracious to give me. When I joined the mentoring program, I never imagined that I would have a awesome relationship with four ladies at church. Lots of things that I did not want to share with them, but I found myself sharing things I never thought I could share.
Two of my mentors I only met last year and the other two I have known for a while, however, I have not really truly known them. Why? Because there is knowing someone by name and then there is knowing someone by spending time with them and getting to know what they are like, how they think, how they pray, and how they encourage you. So in a way, it's like having four brand new friends.
I worked VBS with one of my mentors several years ago, but I forgot what grade it was. I enjoyed it a lot and would love to work VBS with her again. The other mentor that I know; I met when I was babysitting for the choir and I got to know her a little better through Cornerstone Sunday School class and now I've gotten to know her even more. Now we are in another Sunday School class together.
If I had to choose to get together with one of these ladies once a week and not all four of them each month; I'd have a really tough decision to make because they are all absolutely delightful ladies to spend time with and wonderful Sisters in Christ! I don't think that I could ever just choose one of them to spend time with regularly!
Well, like I said earlier, I better get to bed. I still need to read Psalms 23. I have been reading Psalms 23 every single day for 3 weeks now! This is something new I began doing the night I decided to admit myself into the hospital. I have never really meditated on a chapter like this, but it's really quite awesome and in the process of meditating on it, I have pretty much memorized it also.
I had a pretty good day, but I am looking forward to getting my bus pass this weekend! Then I can go to the library and work on catching up with email and working on my blog site. I really want to try and write on my blog daily, but usually I am not very good at that. I'll just do what I can and when I can do it.
Well, I best be going to bed now because I think my best friend is going to call me at 7am in the morning; at least, that is what it sounded like she wanted to do. I told her she can call me whenever she wants because I know she is going through a hard time. We both are and I want to be there for her like she has been there for me. She encouraged me to talk to people about things that are very hard to talk about and also scary to talk about. But I am learning that God puts people in your life, so that you can share things with each other. Not just the good times either, but also the bad times. How else are we suppose to pray for our brothers and sisters in Christ? So I have to be brave and share what's on my mind and not be afraid of how someone will react and treat me.
If I open up and I am honest, I won't miss so many of the blessings that God is gracious to give me. When I joined the mentoring program, I never imagined that I would have a awesome relationship with four ladies at church. Lots of things that I did not want to share with them, but I found myself sharing things I never thought I could share.
Two of my mentors I only met last year and the other two I have known for a while, however, I have not really truly known them. Why? Because there is knowing someone by name and then there is knowing someone by spending time with them and getting to know what they are like, how they think, how they pray, and how they encourage you. So in a way, it's like having four brand new friends.
I worked VBS with one of my mentors several years ago, but I forgot what grade it was. I enjoyed it a lot and would love to work VBS with her again. The other mentor that I know; I met when I was babysitting for the choir and I got to know her a little better through Cornerstone Sunday School class and now I've gotten to know her even more. Now we are in another Sunday School class together.
If I had to choose to get together with one of these ladies once a week and not all four of them each month; I'd have a really tough decision to make because they are all absolutely delightful ladies to spend time with and wonderful Sisters in Christ! I don't think that I could ever just choose one of them to spend time with regularly!
Well, like I said earlier, I better get to bed. I still need to read Psalms 23. I have been reading Psalms 23 every single day for 3 weeks now! This is something new I began doing the night I decided to admit myself into the hospital. I have never really meditated on a chapter like this, but it's really quite awesome and in the process of meditating on it, I have pretty much memorized it also.
Kardia
Well, I miss Caitie, but I decided to wait until tomorrow to visit her. I'll be going to Kardia tonight because I really don't want to miss it! I love all the Kardia ladies and I would just be missing out on so much if I missed Kardia. I can't wait until I get together with Patty tomorrow; I love getting together with her and also all my mentors. They are so special to me and make me feel so special!
Good Morning
Caitie called me this morning, but I had missed her call. I called her right back though and she answered the phone. Caitie is spending time in the hospital getting better and hopefully the new medicine they give her will work to relieve her of her depression. She went into the hospital for similar reasons that I went in. We are both dealing with depression.
Today is a good day for me though. I did kind of wake up with a headache/migraine, but lately they have not been so bad. I think that going off the caffeine was a wise decision and I don't care to go back on it. I also think that drinking as much caffieine as I was doing was also causing me to be depressed more and I definately do not want to go there either.
Tonight I'll go to Kardia, so I won't be able to see Caitie, but I've thought about missing Kardia and going to visit Caitie instead. Go to Kardia or visit Caitie?? I don't want her to have no visitors, but I don't want to miss Kardia. I could always call Patty and ask her what time she wants to get together tomorrow and go ahead and miss Kardia, but I really do not want to miss Kardia and I know Caitie will certainly understand. I need to go to kardia because it's important for me to be there.
Today is a good day for me though. I did kind of wake up with a headache/migraine, but lately they have not been so bad. I think that going off the caffeine was a wise decision and I don't care to go back on it. I also think that drinking as much caffieine as I was doing was also causing me to be depressed more and I definately do not want to go there either.
Tonight I'll go to Kardia, so I won't be able to see Caitie, but I've thought about missing Kardia and going to visit Caitie instead. Go to Kardia or visit Caitie?? I don't want her to have no visitors, but I don't want to miss Kardia. I could always call Patty and ask her what time she wants to get together tomorrow and go ahead and miss Kardia, but I really do not want to miss Kardia and I know Caitie will certainly understand. I need to go to kardia because it's important for me to be there.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
My Name is Mike by Gail Sattler
I am reading a Heartsong Present book called "My Name is Mike" by Gail Sattler. It's about a young man struggling to admit he is an alcoholic and coming to grips with it. He also struggles to believe that God Loves Him. This is a really good book.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
Feeling a little better
I had a great day so far today, even though I woke up not feeling well! I am feeling a little better though. I met with Rachel and Tim at Carl's Jr./Green Burrito and their neice was their. She was not eating and ended up getting sick. Poor kid! I am feeling a little better right now. I finished my book that I was reading plus my mom and I went to the post office to check our mail; we did not have any packages though.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Can't Sleep
Today I woke up at 5:30am and could not sleep. I tossed and turned until I gave up trying to sleep at around 7am or so. I woke up with a bit of a headache. I read Psalms 23 this morning and Judges 2. Right now I still have a bit of a headache.
I took a short break from the computer to color a picture in my princess coloring books. That's one of the things I was taught to do for therapy when I was in the hospital. I think I like using markers better than crayons for some reason.
Later I am going to do some reading for pleasure and also take a nap because I am still very tired. Tonight I have Kardia and I am looking forward to going tonight, but I haven't done the lesson and I find it to be extremely hard to do and answer questions. I'm not very bright when I do Bible studies.
I skipped breakfast because I was not hungry, so I had kind of an early lunch. I fixed a roast beef sandwich with mustard and pickles.
I took a short break from the computer to color a picture in my princess coloring books. That's one of the things I was taught to do for therapy when I was in the hospital. I think I like using markers better than crayons for some reason.
Later I am going to do some reading for pleasure and also take a nap because I am still very tired. Tonight I have Kardia and I am looking forward to going tonight, but I haven't done the lesson and I find it to be extremely hard to do and answer questions. I'm not very bright when I do Bible studies.
I skipped breakfast because I was not hungry, so I had kind of an early lunch. I fixed a roast beef sandwich with mustard and pickles.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
New Hobbies
Today I had a really good day! My mom took me to my friend's house to give her the page I colored for her and I also showed her some coloring pages I printed out from the internet. Coloring is now one of my new hobbies. After my mom and I went to my friend's house, we went to pick up mail and we didn't have much, but we did have something important for my mom. Then we went thru the drive thru at McDonalds and ordered two cherry pies plus got a cup of cold ice water because it was so hot. We then went to Taco Bell for Root Beer! We had made sandwiches before leaving our house, so we didn't eat out except for the cherry pies.
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